{AMANDACHAN♥}

ORD was yesterday. spent the whole of last night, thinking. about so many things.

i don't know, it didn't seem to be the night of celebration with the company. it felt so weird. so disappointing. so segregated. it would be hard not to want to turn back time to make things right again. watching the others cry because of mistakes i didn't help to prevent from happening.

didn't talk to the other parts much but i want to tell them not to cry. it's not all over yet. our hearts and minds are with ncc and it always will be with you guys.

reminiscing the old times with the platoon felt good. then the powder fight.. super funny. took many pictures as a platoon(: long time since we last did that(:

the part cs were really, really sweet. they prepared this little song for each of us, then a song for all of us, and gave us hand painted and assembled planes/helicopters, and threw confetti and balloons over us. so sweet right? i guess alot of us teared. but no tears cos we promised to smile(:

now it's time for the company to make a steady march towards one common goal, and we'll always be silently watching over you guys.

and sorry for screwing it up. again. sigh. i wanted the best, but the the outcome was not enough. not even half of what was enough. if only we could go back again.