Listening to this song makes me wanna cry

Cheryl if you see this can you buy this for me lol

BIG PACK YA

Wait I think china blocks blogspot
Argh!!!!
There is no way of contacting that woman

Random bouts of depression

I can finally attribute my random bouts of depression to PMS
Previously I thought my bad mood was cos I am just being a bitch
But hey it's PMS

My hormones are doing funny things now
Aren't you supposed to follow the cycle of the moon????
Felt so pissed off at work+suddenly depressed+nostalgic
I realized.. You are honestly the best person I've ever met

It's a shame.

Fucked

First time kena fucked for something I didn't do
Let's make it the first time I got fucked really badly for anything (I think?)

When you put the emotions aside, you will realize there is so much more to learn from this episode
One of which is to look at the logic beneath the situation and take away as much as you can
"Thank the people who fuck you because that's when you learn Ye fastest"

Sigh, but still, can't stop the emotions from erupting first
Poor poor A, imagine if I'm a trainee I already feel so terrible, what about her?:(
Thanks D for standing up for us, explaining to us the situation, R for being so supportive as always ("Chin up beautiful! Give me a smile!") and L for making me laugh through my tears
I promise I will come back stronger<3
And I will go back and whoop your ass

Pride issues

Darren was talking about how one can truly progress of you had your pride stripped. In army for instance, they strip your pride and replace it with that of the unit.

Then he asked me, "Tweety bird, will you cry if I strip you of your pride?"

I wouldn't mind, I feel like I have too much tears built up in me already

Pain is good

Went for two days of muaythai despite muscle aches after the first day
And I chalked up 8 bruises (one of which was because I dropped my phone on my toe)

Such a long time since I felt my muscle aches
And it never felt so good
Pain displacement works

One on one with Garrick on Sunday was really intense
I started off training by myself on my kicks when he gave me a skipping rope
Did pad work, did a lot of kneeing
Boy did I have to push myself! He kept asking if I can go faster, and I said yes
Push push push
My knee has a huge bruise now! But I accidentally kneed him in the solar plexus harder than expected.. :/

Then we clinched and fought for control until the back of my head hurts (I can't even lean my head back on something because it hurts..)
Close combat probably not too useful if I'm against someone bigger and stronger but meh good to know anyway

Last week of work! Feeling a bit funny inside hmm

WHOOOHOOOOO

Feeling a bit high right now hahah

But shall go shower and SLEEP cos I have driving lesson tmr at 9 wtf. Die liao.

Shall drink water to rid my body of all the COH.. My stomach churning alr fml