Thanks for making it better
XX
Sunday, July 31, 2011
First I woke up and I wanted to tell everybody I love how much I love them and how much they mean to me.
Then I want to eat. And eat and eat and eat.
A while later I want to kill every single living organism in sight. Every single one of them.
And now I just want to hide under my blankets and fucking cry.
UGHHHHHH:(
Then I want to eat. And eat and eat and eat.
A while later I want to kill every single living organism in sight. Every single one of them.
And now I just want to hide under my blankets and fucking cry.
UGHHHHHH:(
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Anyone read the horoscopes on Friday? Actually even if you did I doubt you'd have read Taurus
But anyway, here is a summary: your ability to express your feelings in words have peaked so take the change to talk to your sweetie or solve any awkwardness between friends.
If THIS is the peak, I don't wanna know what it's like when it's at the bottom of the abyss
Because I'm so bad with my words it's not even possible. Either I get overly careful with what I say and look deliberate, or rant non stop and look like a loudmouth asshole. Either ways.. Not cool.
I wish I'm one of them people who can say what they feel and others will understand exactly how they feel.
This is generally how conversations between me and Cheryl/Anisha go:
Me: Which was why I couldn't have, yknow, it's just damn hard like.. Aiya you know what I mean right?
C/A: Ya sameeee it's like the -hand gestures- you get it right!!
Which is pretty lulz but we get the message across lol
Thing is, I know I will meet people in the outside world who will ask me how I feel about certain issues or ask me to tell them how exactly I feel. And sometimes even the people closest to me will ask me that too. And I have the amazing ability to come across as something I never wanted to be:(
Sometimes I can't tell people how I truly feel not because I don't know why (I do know why deep down), not because I don't trust them, not because I do things without a purpose, but because I can't find the right words to make them understand. And more often than not, I say the wrong things and come across as some major.. Aiya I don't know how to put it across so I'll use the words of Jessie J from, surprise surprise, Nobody's Perfect
When I'm nervous I have this thing yeah I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
And that's where I seem to fuck up
I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth's starts going the words start flowing
VERBAL DIARRHEA
But it doesn't stop me from trying because I know if those people truly want to know who I am and understand me, they will still get the message no matter what. (I added in verbal diarrhea by myself if you still haven't listened to that song) (but can you just imagine her screaming that!! HAHAHA)
Anyway my facebook's deactivated!
But anyway, here is a summary: your ability to express your feelings in words have peaked so take the change to talk to your sweetie or solve any awkwardness between friends.
If THIS is the peak, I don't wanna know what it's like when it's at the bottom of the abyss
Because I'm so bad with my words it's not even possible. Either I get overly careful with what I say and look deliberate, or rant non stop and look like a loudmouth asshole. Either ways.. Not cool.
I wish I'm one of them people who can say what they feel and others will understand exactly how they feel.
This is generally how conversations between me and Cheryl/Anisha go:
Me: Which was why I couldn't have, yknow, it's just damn hard like.. Aiya you know what I mean right?
C/A: Ya sameeee it's like the -hand gestures- you get it right!!
Which is pretty lulz but we get the message across lol
Thing is, I know I will meet people in the outside world who will ask me how I feel about certain issues or ask me to tell them how exactly I feel. And sometimes even the people closest to me will ask me that too. And I have the amazing ability to come across as something I never wanted to be:(
Sometimes I can't tell people how I truly feel not because I don't know why (I do know why deep down), not because I don't trust them, not because I do things without a purpose, but because I can't find the right words to make them understand. And more often than not, I say the wrong things and come across as some major.. Aiya I don't know how to put it across so I'll use the words of Jessie J from, surprise surprise, Nobody's Perfect
When I'm nervous I have this thing yeah I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
And that's where I seem to fuck up
I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth's starts going the words start flowing
VERBAL DIARRHEA
But it doesn't stop me from trying because I know if those people truly want to know who I am and understand me, they will still get the message no matter what. (I added in verbal diarrhea by myself if you still haven't listened to that song) (but can you just imagine her screaming that!! HAHAHA)
Anyway my facebook's deactivated!
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Still in love with Jessie J's Nobody's Perfect
Please go listen to it, I think it teaches people a lot on what it takes to love and to be loved- in order to earn the latter you must do the former, yet it's not enough.
And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
If your intentions could be misinterpreted by others, could it be that you have allowed that possibility to have existed in the first place? Do you have the power to prevent it from happening?
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned
Seriously this song is SATURATED with learning points. And I love songs like this compared to Judas or something, it's a nice song but beyond that, nah.
It's one of those reflective nights again.
Please go listen to it, I think it teaches people a lot on what it takes to love and to be loved- in order to earn the latter you must do the former, yet it's not enough.
And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
If your intentions could be misinterpreted by others, could it be that you have allowed that possibility to have existed in the first place? Do you have the power to prevent it from happening?
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned
Seriously this song is SATURATED with learning points. And I love songs like this compared to Judas or something, it's a nice song but beyond that, nah.
It's one of those reflective nights again.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
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